22 So foolish was I, and ignorant: I was as a beast before thee.
23 Nevertheless I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by my right hand.
24 Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.
26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.
27 For, lo, they that are far from thee shall perish: thou hast destroyed all them that go a whoring from thee.
28 But it is good for me to draw near to God: I have put my trust in the Lord God, that I may declare all thy works.
Psalm 73:22-28 King James Version (KJV)
In 2019, I was excited at the prospect of 2020.
Aha, I told myself, that ought to stand for 2020 vision.
But then again, we humans don't have God's vision.
We only see what is right in front of us.
Sometimes, we don't even see it.
We do not have the gift of Total Vision.
Like seeing the never-ending love of God, the hardship of others, and the lack of love from ourselves for others.
For, if we did, the world won't be the way it is right now.
It is a God-less world.
Our love is not pure.
And sometimes, tests are necessary.
When something tough happens, comfort is shaken, and we try to see why such things happened.
Most of the time, we don't have the spiritual vision to see clearly, especially if we don't read Scripture.
Since I became a born-again Christian for eight months now, I only sought His counsel.
I stopped thinking for myself, much less figuring things out for myself.
I merely prayed, to ask, or to thank.
I prayed, to be guided -- constantly -- by Jesus.
I became like a little child again, completely trusting in God.
By myself, I won't amount to anything.
But with God, I become His own.
Perhaps, I was doing something right along the way, despite my many failures, for the Holy Spirit inspired me to write those 22 books on spiritual warfare, as the disease that was to plague the world began unfolding in November last year.
Very strange, indeed.
As if that was not enough, the Holy Spirit also inspired me to write two more books at the start of 2020, this time on Jesus.
My spiritual eyes were being opened to Scripture, and I was guided to use whatever verses were appropriate for every book, chapter, or article.
As God was exact, I wanted to be exact, too.
He knew the contents of my heart.
Work had to represent such vital learning.
There was no more self.
Only God remained.
God knew that I had always considered my work sacred, as an offering back to Him.
So, He let me do all kinds of work, only to be led back to my first love -- writing.
He even showed that, in a dream I had nearly 20 years ago.
He also showed how it was to end for me, for He knew what I was searching for.
He knew I always paid attention, thus, He kept giving me little clues, and opportunities, here and there.
He was constantly testing my spirit.
He was trying to see what spiritual mettle I had.
Would I give up, or would I keep going?
Would I do things the easy way, as the world would have me do, or would I do things the much more difficult way, as God would have me do?
That's how it is to work for the LORD.
You must throw away all worldly knowledge, self-absorption, and focus on God alone.
There is no thought of reward.
Serving God is enough.
I only wait for His guidance, and His instruction.
Like a little child, look up to God as your ONLY counsel.
And your days will be filled with love, and certainty.
Watch how your work will grow, or evolve, when you are in the service of the LORD.
The world cannot de-stabilize the stability of Jesus in you, especially if you are well-anchored in Him.
Never again will you be lost.
For you have been found.